hello? its me!

its like writing to an old friend after taking some time out!
I am back having naught fulfilled my promises!! writing after a year of not doing so

ah well!!

a lot of things have happened since then!

1. my best friend is now an Ex Best Friend (though i am gonna leave all the blogs where she is mentioned; gets a chuckle out of me every time)
2. i did manage to have the Revived friend leave once more
3. my ex best friend's ex boyfriend is still my friend (mainly because he is an ex)
4. Modi won the 2019 elections with a higher winning percentage than the 2014 elections!!
5. India won the world cup match against Pakistan!!
6. i went to two friends (sister's of friends count too) party this year and also threw my own!!
7. i damaged my phone's hardware! (why is this honestly news)
8. painted my room (more like drew on the walls)
9. went to live with my cousin for a week 
10. started teaching classes 3rd to 12th (computers)
11. drank a pint of beer with family (age 20 perks)
12. read 8 complete stories on Wattpad (30 or more chapters each) in 4 days
13. finally posted my first story on Wattpad (2 chapters deep)

thats it till now i guess!!

ah well ta me lovelies!! 

Yuhoo!!

Heeeeey! so we meet after the fire and the smoke!!
which sounds an awesome plot for a book or a movie!! and kinda dark lord-ish!!
i wud know about this cuz i have started reading the Harry Potter books!! finally braved the first book and all!

sooooooooooo me awesome lovelies! i finally made the new blog i have been dying to make for so long and its this : called Destiny of Disasters the name has been suggested by me best friend Anshu--- which means if u dont like it and all troll her and all!! ask for how to reach her and all in the comments bellow- (be happy to help and all!! ;))

i am still gonna continue writing here cuuuuuuuuuuuz this has been my awesomely awesome space for sooooooo long and u guyz have listened to my ravings through think and thin!!

every Saturday me lovelies mark your calendars: at unknown time once every Saturday- u me & me ravings gonna have a date!! tehee!! (that was me giggling i suppose! something i havent ever done and i pride myself over it!! although there is nothing wrong with giggling and i suppose maybe i have once done it idk!!)
the revived friendship is going beautifully!! just waiting for the moment he gets over the whole fiasco so that i can get the nasty deets and all!
though by no means i am gonna throw him outa me life after that! i dont do ghosting on best-friends! (which clearly means i do it on peeps who r flirty #winkwink!!)

ssooooooooooooooooooo this be it idk!!
annnnnnnnnd stay rad awesome and lovely peace!!

birthdays and parties and long lost people coming back

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its been eons innit!!
but like i am damn sure u lovelies r kinda used to this shit by now!!
sooooooo yeaah HIiiiiiiiii!!
this be me aka ur host aka the lil girl whose boring life u currently reading about!!
so recently which is like the 5th of June it was me birthday
partays and all
and it also was worlds environmental day
and Draco Malfoy's and Frank Zhang's and also of Grover Underwood! which is like a lot if awesome birthday twins that i have (heeehhee)
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo................................... celebrated it with me best friend and sistah honestly love her to bits (my lil sister Maahira that is!!)
we didnt cut a cake buut it as worth it... loved the celebrations!!
pro tip: if u want a perfect celebration and ur family to put in extra effort- cry the night before ur birthday!! i did and it worked wonders for me (#winkemoji)
soooooooooooooooo ookay the guy who came back... was someone already mentioned here... one of the 3 people who left!! one with a gf??
idk he came back.......... and i dont do grudges and i really wanted my best friend back!! so like yeah.
also i burnt my laptop charger... smoke all around!!!!!!!!!
this be it then !!
taaa
stay rad lovelies!!!!!!!!!!! <33

Am i a Romantic or NOT?????????

recently- aka in the noon someone asked me- aka the friend of my best friend..........
if i was unromantic as her?
and my answer on the spot was a freaking a Yes!
because ofc i am unromantic i hate love and shit

but then when i thought about it... which was after they had kept the phone i began pondering over the question; trying to figure out the thing
right!!

so i discovered that i was a romantic person #innerrevelation (Anshu close ur mouth... makhi ghus jayegi!!)
not the over the top romanticism; i dont want odes or ballads or epics written about me; i dont want to be serenaded... but what i do want is (also the reasons why i think i am a romantic person):

1. someone who would bring chivalry back; i want doors to be opened for me; chairs to be pulled... even the cliched jacket thing!
2. someone to be open for PDA! random hugs and kisses; hand holding and all that shabang!!
3. i want the guy going the old way; like asking my dad first and then taking me out on a date or something...
4. i want random texts in the middle of the day or the night with some weird memory of us
5. i want the magic and the fuzzyness ya know!!

phew!! that was uuuuughhhh and eeeewwwww!! please wait till i puke me guts out
(also i was a sad romantically hopeless person after you kept the phone dude!!)

alsoooooooo remember the dieting shit!!!! haaaaaaahaaaaaaaaa its out!!
i am gonna survive 2080 with the same ass boday!!

alsoooooooooooo i think i have ruined me eyes more!!!!!!! (as u do!!)

thats it i guess... just wanted to put these views out here!
like i havent experinced that shit- never been on dates and all so i dont know but my dream date wud be something cozy and intimate; a dinner and then dancing after under the fairy lights or the stars!!

this loveydovey shit is making me wanna puke me guts out
soo yeah that is this

also i didnt wanted to read the brand new release of Trials of Apollo- the Burning Maze- by Rick Riordan-- i wanted to wait for the next book cuz i thought this one wud be slow and boring
buuuuuuuuuuuuuut uncle Rick the freaking Genious shares a story on Insta telling the fandom that we shud be worried and afraid--- and now i'd have to buy this (hiiiiiiii Anshu)

soo yeah that is it i guess
bbyyyye my lovelies; stay rad and awesome!!!!!

I Give Up????????

remember the dieting thin i was supposed to do?
(P.S its not really dieting- its not eating anything junk and drinking loads of water)
so like i am drinking (wink emoji) loads of freaking water- 2 bottles worth 110mL and like walking and shit buuuuuuuuuut food man
had a REAL bad craving for pizza yesterday- cuz i saw it in the fridge as u do... and it was sitting there staring at me and being like u wont have a bite... i cudnt say no!

but i didnt have it yesterday- cux the guy i told to bring the Coke didnt bring it... sooooooooooo didnt have it yesterday...
but had it during breakfast!!!!!!! cux why not!
and then also had oily food for lunch cuz mum didnt cook anything (mum's fault really) and i also had Coke with that

i think i am addicted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and then i had popcorn and coke in the evening cuuuuuuz major craving

and also its sooooooooooo hot and didnt even go for a walk!!!!!!!!!!!!

but on a goodder note i contacted the college for addmissions and all... and i am supposed to go there tomorrow but now due to mum i am thinking of changing my major to BA and then doing MBA istead of BBA and then MBA (uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

freking dig a hole and bury me alive!!!

searching for that now!! not the hole thing;; the BA thing!!!!!!!!!!! u masterminds

k bye then!!
also major awesome note if u a cricket fan the yesterday's CSK vs RCB match is not to be missed at any cost.............. cuzzzz DHONI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also soooooooooooo
Stay Rad and Awesome me Lovelies!

Genraalll!!

so since i have already posted a blog and wrecked my eyes why not do it again!! :D

Hola lovelies! whats been crack-a-lackin'?
lemme tell ya about moi!
cuz even if i did nothing yesterday and the entire day today i still have strories from the year gone by to share
okay so yesterday after hitting the subscribe button i wrecked google images and searched for 'Abhay Raichand' (the guy is hot and u can do it too) from where i learned that his marriage with his wife broke up a year ago...
now wink wink nude nudge... u might think that this is a great thing but man noooooooooo! love is dwindling all around and this is not a good thing. even if i didnt like Vivian (thats his real name) and Vahbiz's marriage atleast i knew who he was married to... finding about his current relations being like "baby baby nooooooooo"
sorry major distraction!!

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo life is freaking hard.... its summer ad i hate it and i think the sun was brought into existence a millennia ago so it could torture me... if i die unexpectedly dude i blame the fraking big ball of fire in the sky!
and now on to the past
i know i know we shudnt be stuck in the past and focus on the future... but man the past is so vibrant and colorful and beaut

soooooooooooo lets see i am getting married... NOT legit my dad was like ur mum married when she was 18 and i started crying!!
and he was like geez! i am just informing you...
but like i have many brothers and sisters before me and ppppfffftttt!!!!!! always single as a pringle!!
relationships wreck you!

so remember how i posted about my BF yesterday (thats best friend u pervs! ruining me single life) and i told her about it cuz validation and she posted a story of it on her insta like awwwwwwww wuv u Anshu!!

also i wanna learn Russian- cux i love Russian and learn French; German; Sanskrit; Greek and Latin cuz why not also YOLO!! (even though that cud go either way)

recently learned me this friend Gogu (Simran Gogna) has gone to canada... like "tussi ja rhe ho; tussi na jao" but she's been there since december sooo :(

also i am hungry and munching on almonds cuz of nudge nudge wink wink- the weight loss thing... i even went for a 30 min walk yesterday (sham ko Anshu in my own house... chat pe!)
alsooooooooooooooo

check out the Sanjay Dutt's biopic's trailer! its EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!! Ranbir Kapoor loooks sooooooo much lke Sanjay Baba!!

also i went to me friends house cux of which Anshu was angry at me (this is turning to be a blog about Anshu... dudeeeeeee!!!!!!!!) and was like u have other friends "yes dude i do!!"
lets see: Gogu; Palomita; Manveen (i want me books back dude); Kathir; Khadeeja; Shanaya; Shailja.

thats it? or u wanna more if u do me lovelies
lets go undercover advertiser mode!!
Step 1: open YouTube
Step 2: type in the search bar- "Dice Media"
Step 3: when their page comes and all watch their web series
i am  currently on Little Things episode 3 and a half and Adulting episode 1

also me mum's gone out with me lil sis Maahira to Nani's house (maternal grand mom)
my cusin sis is getting married and i am like soooooooo jealous of her her fiance gifted her an iPhone X and someone gave her kylie's lip kit as the pre wedding gift and all (hate her!)

also watched miss peregrine's home for peculiar children- it has Helena Bonham Carter as lead!!!!!!!!! WUVED IT she is my fav actress so yeah... also if some has to argue come on i have awesome movies in the arsenal- from Harry Potter; to James Bond; to Cinderella and now this movie; she is freaking versatile and AwEsOmE!!

so yeah thats it from me side- and i changed the look of my blog hwz it???

kk bbye Stay Rad and Awesome me Lovelies!!!!!!!!! *kisses and hugs*

Knock! Knock! Hello?

so its 2k18!
i am turning 19 this year
i am supposed to be this super sophisticated version of this non-existing girl
but man i am more and more of not what i should be
i am not "sophisticated!"
i eat with crumbs all over
i talk crazy shit
i am more of something i didnt expect to be when this year started

the last year i have been gone with vacant promises i didnt fulfill... i could be gone again and return with reasons beyond belief!!
but HOLA!! i had major reasons this time...
my retina has wrecked havoc and has blown PUFF!! i have had to have three injections in my eyes while being conscious... and the freaking doctors were talking about their family life while at it!! needless to say i wanted to murder them; but they had something on my face which didnt even allow me to blink (is there a Yelp review for this cuz i wanna rate it in negatives!!)
that crazy shit happened
while i was crazy friendless
both my best friends left me for weird reasons; another left me on reasons i am not aware of; my school friends had all started college or had gone to foreign countries for the same while i was at me home taking a freaking gap year! (except Anshu that is and bae if u reading this this costs major best friend points!!)

i still dont know what i am supposed to be
no sudden enlightenment has come my way to show me epic paths to traverse on
at least i had plans when i was young; i wanted to be a doctor, but while except for the love of biology there was nothing serious in it... yeah i wanted to be a freaking neuro-surgeon but i didnt study enough for it...
but now there are no plans... they change like the whether... but like i wanna do something in the business field so thats that

but like i wanna achieve this thing and no its not for the health reasons; the reason is totally bizarre that even at this secluded corner of my own covert niche i am not gonna tell ye... cuz i kinda personally know many of u read me weird crazy thoughts and i am not up for that kinda thing... maybe after i have achieved it... a sudden loss in my weight- i mean its come to the point where i want an illness that will make me thin!!
but oh! well! one can dream and hope!!

i am still writing stories and all... but i have stopped reading except the newspaper... and this is my first outing on a laptop since my eye fiasco!!
so yeah this is what is being going on!
i know i promised a brand new blog with deets of college and all- but i am still to be part of one... and after a few classes i gather a new niche will  be created and explored like crazy but until then there is always
new blog on WordPress (which i avent touched since forever)
till then me lovelies stay rad and your ever awesome selves and continue to hold hope for my new blog here on the blogger site along with a YouTube channel!!! (there is nothing wrong in hoping... or is there??)