I Give Up????????

remember the dieting thin i was supposed to do?
(P.S its not really dieting- its not eating anything junk and drinking loads of water)
so like i am drinking (wink emoji) loads of freaking water- 2 bottles worth 110mL and like walking and shit buuuuuuuuuut food man
had a REAL bad craving for pizza yesterday- cuz i saw it in the fridge as u do... and it was sitting there staring at me and being like u wont have a bite... i cudnt say no!

but i didnt have it yesterday- cux the guy i told to bring the Coke didnt bring it... sooooooooooo didnt have it yesterday...
but had it during breakfast!!!!!!! cux why not!
and then also had oily food for lunch cuz mum didnt cook anything (mum's fault really) and i also had Coke with that

i think i am addicted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and then i had popcorn and coke in the evening cuuuuuuz major craving

and also its sooooooooooo hot and didnt even go for a walk!!!!!!!!!!!!

but on a goodder note i contacted the college for addmissions and all... and i am supposed to go there tomorrow but now due to mum i am thinking of changing my major to BA and then doing MBA istead of BBA and then MBA (uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

freking dig a hole and bury me alive!!!

searching for that now!! not the hole thing;; the BA thing!!!!!!!!!!! u masterminds

k bye then!!
also major awesome note if u a cricket fan the yesterday's CSK vs RCB match is not to be missed at any cost.............. cuzzzz DHONI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also soooooooooooo
Stay Rad and Awesome me Lovelies!

Genraalll!!

so since i have already posted a blog and wrecked my eyes why not do it again!! :D

Hola lovelies! whats been crack-a-lackin'?
lemme tell ya about moi!
cuz even if i did nothing yesterday and the entire day today i still have strories from the year gone by to share
okay so yesterday after hitting the subscribe button i wrecked google images and searched for 'Abhay Raichand' (the guy is hot and u can do it too) from where i learned that his marriage with his wife broke up a year ago...
now wink wink nude nudge... u might think that this is a great thing but man noooooooooo! love is dwindling all around and this is not a good thing. even if i didnt like Vivian (thats his real name) and Vahbiz's marriage atleast i knew who he was married to... finding about his current relations being like "baby baby nooooooooo"
sorry major distraction!!

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo life is freaking hard.... its summer ad i hate it and i think the sun was brought into existence a millennia ago so it could torture me... if i die unexpectedly dude i blame the fraking big ball of fire in the sky!
and now on to the past
i know i know we shudnt be stuck in the past and focus on the future... but man the past is so vibrant and colorful and beaut

soooooooooooo lets see i am getting married... NOT legit my dad was like ur mum married when she was 18 and i started crying!!
and he was like geez! i am just informing you...
but like i have many brothers and sisters before me and ppppfffftttt!!!!!! always single as a pringle!!
relationships wreck you!

so remember how i posted about my BF yesterday (thats best friend u pervs! ruining me single life) and i told her about it cuz validation and she posted a story of it on her insta like awwwwwwww wuv u Anshu!!

also i wanna learn Russian- cux i love Russian and learn French; German; Sanskrit; Greek and Latin cuz why not also YOLO!! (even though that cud go either way)

recently learned me this friend Gogu (Simran Gogna) has gone to canada... like "tussi ja rhe ho; tussi na jao" but she's been there since december sooo :(

also i am hungry and munching on almonds cuz of nudge nudge wink wink- the weight loss thing... i even went for a 30 min walk yesterday (sham ko Anshu in my own house... chat pe!)
alsooooooooooooooo

check out the Sanjay Dutt's biopic's trailer! its EPIC!!!!!!!!!!!! Ranbir Kapoor loooks sooooooo much lke Sanjay Baba!!

also i went to me friends house cux of which Anshu was angry at me (this is turning to be a blog about Anshu... dudeeeeeee!!!!!!!!) and was like u have other friends "yes dude i do!!"
lets see: Gogu; Palomita; Manveen (i want me books back dude); Kathir; Khadeeja; Shanaya; Shailja.

thats it? or u wanna more if u do me lovelies
lets go undercover advertiser mode!!
Step 1: open YouTube
Step 2: type in the search bar- "Dice Media"
Step 3: when their page comes and all watch their web series
i am  currently on Little Things episode 3 and a half and Adulting episode 1

also me mum's gone out with me lil sis Maahira to Nani's house (maternal grand mom)
my cusin sis is getting married and i am like soooooooo jealous of her her fiance gifted her an iPhone X and someone gave her kylie's lip kit as the pre wedding gift and all (hate her!)

also watched miss peregrine's home for peculiar children- it has Helena Bonham Carter as lead!!!!!!!!! WUVED IT she is my fav actress so yeah... also if some has to argue come on i have awesome movies in the arsenal- from Harry Potter; to James Bond; to Cinderella and now this movie; she is freaking versatile and AwEsOmE!!

so yeah thats it from me side- and i changed the look of my blog hwz it???

kk bbye Stay Rad and Awesome me Lovelies!!!!!!!!! *kisses and hugs*

Knock! Knock! Hello?

so its 2k18!
i am turning 19 this year
i am supposed to be this super sophisticated version of this non-existing girl
but man i am more and more of not what i should be
i am not "sophisticated!"
i eat with crumbs all over
i talk crazy shit
i am more of something i didnt expect to be when this year started

the last year i have been gone with vacant promises i didnt fulfill... i could be gone again and return with reasons beyond belief!!
but HOLA!! i had major reasons this time...
my retina has wrecked havoc and has blown PUFF!! i have had to have three injections in my eyes while being conscious... and the freaking doctors were talking about their family life while at it!! needless to say i wanted to murder them; but they had something on my face which didnt even allow me to blink (is there a Yelp review for this cuz i wanna rate it in negatives!!)
that crazy shit happened
while i was crazy friendless
both my best friends left me for weird reasons; another left me on reasons i am not aware of; my school friends had all started college or had gone to foreign countries for the same while i was at me home taking a freaking gap year! (except Anshu that is and bae if u reading this this costs major best friend points!!)

i still dont know what i am supposed to be
no sudden enlightenment has come my way to show me epic paths to traverse on
at least i had plans when i was young; i wanted to be a doctor, but while except for the love of biology there was nothing serious in it... yeah i wanted to be a freaking neuro-surgeon but i didnt study enough for it...
but now there are no plans... they change like the whether... but like i wanna do something in the business field so thats that

but like i wanna achieve this thing and no its not for the health reasons; the reason is totally bizarre that even at this secluded corner of my own covert niche i am not gonna tell ye... cuz i kinda personally know many of u read me weird crazy thoughts and i am not up for that kinda thing... maybe after i have achieved it... a sudden loss in my weight- i mean its come to the point where i want an illness that will make me thin!!
but oh! well! one can dream and hope!!

i am still writing stories and all... but i have stopped reading except the newspaper... and this is my first outing on a laptop since my eye fiasco!!
so yeah this is what is being going on!
i know i promised a brand new blog with deets of college and all- but i am still to be part of one... and after a few classes i gather a new niche will  be created and explored like crazy but until then there is always
new blog on WordPress (which i avent touched since forever)
till then me lovelies stay rad and your ever awesome selves and continue to hold hope for my new blog here on the blogger site along with a YouTube channel!!! (there is nothing wrong in hoping... or is there??)