so its 2k18!
i am turning 19 this year
i am supposed to be this super sophisticated version of this non-existing girl
but man i am more and more of not what i should be
i am not "sophisticated!"
i eat with crumbs all over
i talk crazy shit
i am more of something i didnt expect to be when this year started
the last year i have been gone with vacant promises i didnt fulfill... i could be gone again and return with reasons beyond belief!!
but HOLA!! i had major reasons this time...
my retina has wrecked havoc and has blown PUFF!! i have had to have three injections in my eyes while being conscious... and the freaking doctors were talking about their family life while at it!! needless to say i wanted to murder them; but they had something on my face which didnt even allow me to blink (is there a Yelp review for this cuz i wanna rate it in negatives!!)
that crazy shit happened
while i was crazy friendless
both my best friends left me for weird reasons; another left me on reasons i am not aware of; my school friends had all started college or had gone to foreign countries for the same while i was at me home taking a freaking gap year! (except Anshu that is and bae if u reading this this costs major best friend points!!)
i still dont know what i am supposed to be
no sudden enlightenment has come my way to show me epic paths to traverse on
at least i had plans when i was young; i wanted to be a doctor, but while except for the love of biology there was nothing serious in it... yeah i wanted to be a freaking neuro-surgeon but i didnt study enough for it...
but now there are no plans... they change like the whether... but like i wanna do something in the business field so thats that
but like i wanna achieve this thing and no its not for the health reasons; the reason is totally bizarre that even at this secluded corner of my own covert niche i am not gonna tell ye... cuz i kinda personally know many of u read me weird crazy thoughts and i am not up for that kinda thing... maybe after i have achieved it... a sudden loss in my weight- i mean its come to the point where i want an illness that will make me thin!!
but oh! well! one can dream and hope!!
i am still writing stories and all... but i have stopped reading except the newspaper... and this is my first outing on a laptop since my eye fiasco!!
so yeah this is what is being going on!
i know i promised a brand new blog with deets of college and all- but i am still to be part of one... and after a few classes i gather a new niche will be created and explored like crazy but until then there is always
new blog on WordPress (which i avent touched since forever)
till then me lovelies stay rad and your ever awesome selves and continue to hold hope for my new blog here on the blogger site along with a YouTube channel!!! (there is nothing wrong in hoping... or is there??)
i am turning 19 this year
i am supposed to be this super sophisticated version of this non-existing girl
but man i am more and more of not what i should be
i am not "sophisticated!"
i eat with crumbs all over
i talk crazy shit
i am more of something i didnt expect to be when this year started
the last year i have been gone with vacant promises i didnt fulfill... i could be gone again and return with reasons beyond belief!!
but HOLA!! i had major reasons this time...
my retina has wrecked havoc and has blown PUFF!! i have had to have three injections in my eyes while being conscious... and the freaking doctors were talking about their family life while at it!! needless to say i wanted to murder them; but they had something on my face which didnt even allow me to blink (is there a Yelp review for this cuz i wanna rate it in negatives!!)
that crazy shit happened
while i was crazy friendless
both my best friends left me for weird reasons; another left me on reasons i am not aware of; my school friends had all started college or had gone to foreign countries for the same while i was at me home taking a freaking gap year! (except Anshu that is and bae if u reading this this costs major best friend points!!)
i still dont know what i am supposed to be
no sudden enlightenment has come my way to show me epic paths to traverse on
at least i had plans when i was young; i wanted to be a doctor, but while except for the love of biology there was nothing serious in it... yeah i wanted to be a freaking neuro-surgeon but i didnt study enough for it...
but now there are no plans... they change like the whether... but like i wanna do something in the business field so thats that
but like i wanna achieve this thing and no its not for the health reasons; the reason is totally bizarre that even at this secluded corner of my own covert niche i am not gonna tell ye... cuz i kinda personally know many of u read me weird crazy thoughts and i am not up for that kinda thing... maybe after i have achieved it... a sudden loss in my weight- i mean its come to the point where i want an illness that will make me thin!!
but oh! well! one can dream and hope!!
i am still writing stories and all... but i have stopped reading except the newspaper... and this is my first outing on a laptop since my eye fiasco!!
so yeah this is what is being going on!
i know i promised a brand new blog with deets of college and all- but i am still to be part of one... and after a few classes i gather a new niche will be created and explored like crazy but until then there is always
new blog on WordPress (which i avent touched since forever)
till then me lovelies stay rad and your ever awesome selves and continue to hold hope for my new blog here on the blogger site along with a YouTube channel!!! (there is nothing wrong in hoping... or is there??)
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